Aldnoah.Zero fanfic: Air

So, long time no see! It's been a while! I haven't written anything in ages but now after the damn ending to Aldnoah.Zero I felt the urge to write something!

This is not fluff och smex or anything, but it COULD turn up like that. It depends what I feel like doing with it and if anyone wants me to keep writing this. I felt rusty as hell so I ask for you to oversee whatever mistakes I have made. English is my third language and I haven't taken good care of it lately, so sorry about that!

Warning! Anime spoilers!

This is a fanfic about Slaine and Inaho after Slaine had spent about two years at prison. One night he is woken up by Inaho who asks him to get changed into civilian clothes. Slaine gets excited, then suspicious, then scared and finally gets his mind blown (not literally with a bullet to the head, I promise!). Inaho has something planned and takes Slaine out on a secret little outing.

The birds were chirping outside just like they have done every other evening the past one and a half years. Slaine laid face down on the bed hugging his pillow, tired and worn from the restless day which he had spent on pondering on the life he did not have. A dead man walking, that is what he was and felt like. His life in the prison made exclusively for him had nothing to offer other than Orange – or should he call him by his name Kaizuka Inaho now? – visiting him and the bullying from the guards. The bullying had calmed down considerably now after time had done what time does best; left most of the interest in bullying the hated young man behind. Slaine figured the guards did not find it interesting enough anymore to constantly breathe down his neck and comment on whatever he did and shove him around. It was too old and same now. Of course, that had not been an everyday occurrence and most of his days he had been left alone in his cell.

Lullaby Fanfiction 02 - First Verse of The Lullaby (+18)

So now I'm done with the second chapter to my Lullaby series. Finally! For you who don't know he is my super gay and evil tabletop role-playing character from Black Crusade (Warhammer 40k) and I have played him for about a year now. The world is set in the 41st millennium.

This is the first adventure I played with him ever, and he tells it from his own point of view. He's pretty full of himself and I hope that shows in his choice of words.


Story: Lullaby feels bored on the planet where he was left and jumps from a guy's bed into the next to have somewhere to sleep during the nights. Then one day a lunatic suddenly runs in to the bar where Lullaby sits and listens to rumors and shouts out coordinates to a treasure. The bar is quickly emptied with all the pirates and Lullaby is left alone with three other people, whom he allies himself with to go on a treasure hunt. But nothing goes like he expects...


This is a direct continuation from the previous chapter "The Origin of A Lullaby", but it is okay to continue from here too. The previous chapter is about his childhood and how he became the person he is.

Picture by me.

So my eighteenth birthday went by on the planet where I had been brought to by a heretic after my little fire show on a war world. A few days after my birthday I found myself sleeping soundly in a comfortable bed. The mornings were always nice at the mansion where I had found shelter on the planet filled with heretics. It wasn’t exactly like I had a home of my own on that planet. I was rather jumping from one guy’s bed into the next and slept over at many places. When I had been taken there by the leader from the war where I had turned against my own he had hooked me up with a guy who showed me around, but then I was left on my own. I didn’t have money and I didn’t want to sell my weapons, so I ended up seducing men to have somewhere to sleep and hoped that they would treat me for a dinner. It was a shock to go from luxury at the old man’s place to being poor, but that was my reality.

The mansion was my absolute favorite place and I always slept there if I got the chance. The man – who’s name I won’t tell – was a torpedo for hire and he was filthy rich and very handsome. He lived in a luxurious mansion heavily guarded to prevent the thieves and burglars getting in, and he was pretty paranoid at times. But I had gotten myself under his skin and he welcomed me with open arms. Of course he wanted sex, and so I gave him that in exchange for a place to sleep and to get some fine meals in my stomach.

Lullaby Fanfiction 01 - The Origin Of A Lullaby (18+)

So here's the first real instalment in my series about my bad guy Lullaby from the roleplaying game Black Crusade/Warhammer 40k. As I said in an update before I decided to write down all his adventures, and because he's gay and very sexual I thought that maybe they fit here. I have also tried out a new style of writing so you could say this is a experiment.

What do you think happens when an insane person who only knows hate is given a weapon and is taught to kill the ones he hates?

The world is set in the 41st millennium where humans live scattered around the universe in a so called Empire where a special emperor keeps the humanity alive with his own life power. Because The Emperor has grown so weak the human realm has started to fall apart. The humans live a very strict life and has to constantly fight for survival against different types of creatures and demons who lives in the universe, and also many times against them selves. The human world is very corrupted and here and there heretics are born from ordinary people who gets seduced by one of the four dark chaos gods and lives the life of evil and death. The heretics are constantly chased and the more infamous the heretic gets the more the Empire turns their eyes on him/her.

This is the story of my heretic Lullaby who is very self-confident but also very hurt and broken as a human. He's totally insane and knows nothing of what is right and wrong. Even if he's very innocent at heart in a way he's also very dangerous and corrupted, and the more the time went the more infamous he got. In the end the super little gay boy who could charm the pants off of a grown man became so known in universe he became a legend.

Do you dare to get to know him?



Me about Lullaby: He stands for a lot of stuff I won't support. He was created to be as far away from me as a person as possible, and in the beginning I felt pretty angry at him for being so "stupid". But the more I played him the more I began to love him, and now he's my baby and favorite character even if he's a horrible person in so many ways. In the end I also feel a lot in common with him. I guess some parts of him was created from my subconscious and at times I can really relate myself to him. I also love to play the evil guys in games, and I always root for the bad guys in movies and anime so he was really REALLY entertaining to play! But because he was so complex even though he was very simple minded as a character I had a very hard time playing him. My brain was always turned into a goo. LOL! He needs a lot of my brain capacity and an enormous amount of energy to be played. Now he's removed from play though because he became so powerful that the Game Master didn't want to allow him as an active character. Lullaby's more or less an NPC (non playable character) now. I miss  him so much...  (T_T)


Warning!

This story is very dark. I have to warn sensitive people from reading it. His background is very horrible and I myself had a very hard time writing it. It contains a lot of provocative subjects.

Picture of Lullaby as demon god made by me. Before when he was a human he didn't have the tail, horns and purple skin. His helmet wasn't cracked either. Picture took 26 hours to make from scratch.

When I look at people I feel disgusted. They are stupid and predictable, boring and untrustworthy. The world of humans is a dark and gloomy place, and I have been cursed by once being forced to live in that fucked up world as one of these humans. Why do I hate humans? Because the humankind didn’t give a shit about me and gave me nothing but hell.

I still ask – I don’t know who – what I did to deserve the hurt and deceit I got from both my family and the old man. I still ask – I don’t know who – why no one came when I cried for help during all these seventeen years filled with neglect and abuse. You see – I have no one to ask, and I didn’t have anyone to cry for. I have never had a name to call out for when I’m in need and even if I had I was already too broken to call for them. The ones I should have been able to call out and reach for were the ones who were guilty for making my life as it was. Every day as a young boy I asked myself “Is this what my life is for, to waste in a world full of these bad people?”

Six years. That’s all I have lived this far. It was right after my seventeenth birthday that I got free from all the pain. Before that I wasn’t alive. Six years ago I got the courage to grip the handle of freedom. Before that I was a doll filled with chaotic emotions and bending to all the demands of other people. When I got older I wanted to rise up and look my demons in the eyes to tell them to piss off, but no matter how hard I tried they had a grip on me that was tight enough to almost suffocate the life out of me. My little will to stand straight crackled under the heaviness of other people’s greed and desires. I had learned from my childhood that tears and begging didn’t help, so I just did as told. Just cope with the pain. That was my first lesson in life.

Fanfic: Brutal Love (Lullaby) 18+

So here I have another Lullaby-fanfiction. I decided to upload it here because it is kind of BL. It takes place on a huge space ship in the 41st millennium.


Can insane people really fall in love? Maybe they can, but they certainly expresses their feelings in a different way than normal people. The story is about my insane badguy Lullaby (Black Crusade/Warhammer 40k) falling in love and wanting to express to that special person exactly how much he really loves him.

I want to warn sensitive people from reading this. Even though Lullaby mostly seems innocent like an angel he is brutal and shows no mercy to anyone. In this story Lullaby makes himself into a good (bad?) example of how an insane person shows his love.

(I found my inspiration to this story from the music of Marilyn Manson and a quote from someone unknown I found on internet - which I don't remember anymore. LOL!)

Picture by me. It took me 9 hours to complete this. (>_>)

He stood there staring at the man in front of him. He was so beautiful, so attractive and handsome. Lullaby felt his heart flutter like it had never done before. A heat flushed through his body, but it wasn’t the typical heat he normally felt when he was attracted to someone. It was a heat that made him blush and his mind went haywire with pleasant feelings. He felt shy. That really surprised him and he didn’t understand really what was going on. He wanted the man, but not just sexually.

I’m never shy. Why now?, he thought and felt a pleasant shiver run down his spine as the man threw a glance at him. I want him.

The Aviator

So here it is! It's finally finished! It took months to write this because of all the research I had to do!

It's about a 19 year old boy named Shiina in a world which is covered by world war. He is the world’s greatest pilot and flies a very old combat plane model. He’s the only one in the whole world with his skills on that old plane, and he outruns every single modern combat plane even though his old plane is considered an antique.

But during a mission he crashes into enemy territory and he and his plane is captured by the enemy and taken to enemy camp. There he meets the General who is a proud and strong young man just a few years older than Shiina himself, and it turns out that this General knows more about Shiina than anyone else. But why?

The General promises to patch up his plane and gets his engineers to work on it night and day. Shiina loves his plane too much to live without it and carefully monitors the process every waking moment from the window of the General’s bedroom where he is locked up.

He knows he has to escape to save his plane which will be given to the enemy leader as a gift, but will he be able to make it?


As I said before this took months to write. I had to wait for the special and right time and mood to write this, and I think this is the very best work I’ve done yet. I’m very proud of it.

I dunno where I got my inspiration. I guess I got a little inspiration from Maiden Rose by Inariya Fusanosuke considering the world war thing, but other than that… I dunno. xD

I really hope you enjoy it! ♥

“Mayday! Mayday! Mayday! This is Delta, Sierra, Zulu, Echo in the Eagle Eye Squadron calling the headquarters! I have been hit!  I have to make an emergency landing on enemy territory!”

Shiina’s voice shook and the adrenaline pumped in his body. He could see the smoke from the plane’s tail in the mirror. His heavy heart beat fast and hard, and cold sweat made his uniform damp.

“Delta, Sierra, Zulu, Echo. Your mayday has been acknowledged by the ground troops. What is your position? Over.”

Shiina tried to look at his instruments, but they didn’t make any sense. The blast from the hit must have broken the electronic navigator.

“My instruments are damaged. I can’t give you my position! Over!”

“What is your course? Can you see any landmarks? Over.”

Shiina looked out of the window, but it was too dark to see anything and he had to concentrate on keeping the plane steady. But it was hard, and the moment he lost his concentration just a little bit the whole plane made an intimidating motion that made his heart beat even faster. He then looked at the compass.

“I’m on a course at 142,6 degrees! I can’t see anything on the ground! It’s too dark! My plane is losing power, and I have to make an emergency landing now. I’ll try and contact you after I’ve landed! Over!”

“We will send troops to look for you! Stay where you are if possible! Report back after the landing if you can. Over.”

“Confirmed! Over!”

He put the radio down and took a hold of the plane’s steering. Then he tried to steer the plane closer to the ground to try and find a place to land. Anywhere was good as long as his plane wouldn’t get damaged. His heart didn’t beat hard because he was scared of dying. He was worried about his plane.

Then he spotted a field and decided to try an emergency landing there. So he made a fast u-turn with the plane protesting heavily and then closed the distance between him and the ground. He slowed down the speed, but his plane was so badly damaged that it swayed from side to side and was almost impossible to control. He became even more worried about the landing. What if the plane crashed? What if it got so damaged that it couldn’t fly anymore?

“Please… Hold on. We’re almost there,” he whispered and prayed while he saw the ground come closer and closer. “Don’t give up on me now.”

Then he felt the wheels touch the ground on the planes right side. It then swayed over to the left side, and suddenly there was a hard tug on the plane and Shiina could hear a loud cracking sound. Something had broken under the plane, and the next second he understood it was the landing gear that had been tugged off.

“Please!” he yelled with tears in his eyes while the plane’s body hit the ground and slid across the field. He couldn’t do anything to control this terrifying situation, and then suddenly the plane hit something and it came to an abrupt stop that almost made him fly out of his seat. A piercing pain rushed throughout his body and the hit knocked the wind out of him.

“Agh!”

When he looked down he saw a metal piece that had pierced his right thigh. The blood came gushing out from the wound. He knew he had gotten a fatal wound. What would he do now? His sight was blurry and his head was spinning. He must have gotten a concussion.

He heard voices outside and someone was screaming. It took a while before the voices came closer, and soon someone opened the hatch and pushed a cold metal pipe against his head. The voices he heard were talking in the enemy’s language.

“He’s still alive, but he seems badly injured!” someone yelled.

“Hurry and get him out of there before the whole plane and tank explodes!”

Someone took a hold of Shiina and pulled him out of the plane. His leg hurt really badly and he couldn’t help the whimpering. Nothing made any sense to him and the voices made him even more confused than he already was. His sight wasn’t much help to him. It was so blurry and dark that he could only see the lights from the flashlights.

“He needs immediate medical treatment! Take him to the field doctor! Stop the bleeding!”

He was carried to a truck and then someone pushed hard against his injured leg.

“Aaargh!”

“Move! To the control center! Hurry!” someone yelled, and the truck began to move. Right after that he lost his consciousness.

Hyakujitsu no Bara (Maiden Rose) Fanfiction 18+

This is an old fanfic I wrote a few years ago. It is one of the most popular pages on my other blog where I posted it at first.

I wrote it as an alternative ending to the chapter that was out back then before the story continued in the manga. It was the continuation from when Claus got shot in the train and it exploded. I was so frustrated that I just had to write an ending to that one. LOL!

So because it's in english and it's my very first english yaoi story, I wanted to post it in this blog too so I have everything in one place.

Well, for you who have read that chapter may know that it ended with Klaus being shot by that Berkut-bastard. And the bomb went off too. Oh my! How did they survive?! And Taki's battalion was infiltrated by euroteans so the engineering corps didn't answer Taki's call. So Taki and his men had to hurry to the bridge-head so they could stop the eurotean train.  (O_o)

My continued story begins right after the fighting and stuff. (I'm not good at writing war stuff ya know...) And I haven't given it a title, 'cuz I don't know what I should call this one. But Anyway... Here it is:

Taki felt like the whole world was spinning. He was tired and exhausted. The fight was over and he could now take a rest. He sat on his knees in the cold sand and shook because of the freezing wind. His coat and sword was tainted with blood, and sweat drops rolled down his temples. Berkut lay on the ground in-front of him with open wounds inflicted by Takis sword, but he was still alive.

"Taki-sama! Are you alright?" Moriya asked with concern as he ran towards him.

"I'm fine." Taki answered - out of breath. "Take him to custody." he then said and looked at Berkut.

"Are you sure you're fine?" Suguri asked worriedly, but Taki just nodded firmly.

Moriya and a soldier lifted Berkut up and started to carry him away when he said with a quiet voice:

"Your knight... Do you think he's alive?" He laughed. "I shot him in the chest, and right after that the cart where he was in blew up. Do you think he survived that?"

Taki felt like the world came crumbling down upon him. Klaus ... dead? No, that couldn't be! Suguri placed his hand on Taki's shoulder and looked worried at him. After all - he knew how Taki felt about Klaus. He knew Klaus wasn't just Taki's precious knight.

"Shut up, you vermin!" Moriya yelled and hit Berkut in the gut. They carried him away.

"Klaus..."

Taki's voice died. He couldn't think straight and all he could do was look at the train and hope he'll see Klaus come out through the door to one of those ghostly carts with his usual arrogant smile on his face. But the train was dead quiet. Nothing moved inside it.

"Klaus...!"

His throat started to become too tight for him to breathe. He held his hand against his chest and leaned forward as he needed to vomit. His heart ached so much he couldn't describe it.

"Taki-sama! What's wrong?" Suguri asked and sat down beside him.

"I ... can't breathe!"

"Calm down, Taki-sama! I'm sure Klaus is fine!"

"I can't ... calm..."

Tears rolled down his cheeks as he tried to stop himself from crying out loud. He couldn't help himself. The forced breathing made him dizzy, and soon he fell to the ground unconscious.

"Taki-sama!"