Aldnoah.Zero fanfic: Air

So, long time no see! It's been a while! I haven't written anything in ages but now after the damn ending to Aldnoah.Zero I felt the urge to write something!

This is not fluff och smex or anything, but it COULD turn up like that. It depends what I feel like doing with it and if anyone wants me to keep writing this. I felt rusty as hell so I ask for you to oversee whatever mistakes I have made. English is my third language and I haven't taken good care of it lately, so sorry about that!

Warning! Anime spoilers!

This is a fanfic about Slaine and Inaho after Slaine had spent about two years at prison. One night he is woken up by Inaho who asks him to get changed into civilian clothes. Slaine gets excited, then suspicious, then scared and finally gets his mind blown (not literally with a bullet to the head, I promise!). Inaho has something planned and takes Slaine out on a secret little outing.

The birds were chirping outside just like they have done every other evening the past one and a half years. Slaine laid face down on the bed hugging his pillow, tired and worn from the restless day which he had spent on pondering on the life he did not have. A dead man walking, that is what he was and felt like. His life in the prison made exclusively for him had nothing to offer other than Orange – or should he call him by his name Kaizuka Inaho now? – visiting him and the bullying from the guards. The bullying had calmed down considerably now after time had done what time does best; left most of the interest in bullying the hated young man behind. Slaine figured the guards did not find it interesting enough anymore to constantly breathe down his neck and comment on whatever he did and shove him around. It was too old and same now. Of course, that had not been an everyday occurrence and most of his days he had been left alone in his cell.

Lullaby Fanfiction 02 - First Verse of The Lullaby (+18)

So now I'm done with the second chapter to my Lullaby series. Finally! For you who don't know he is my super gay and evil tabletop role-playing character from Black Crusade (Warhammer 40k) and I have played him for about a year now. The world is set in the 41st millennium.

This is the first adventure I played with him ever, and he tells it from his own point of view. He's pretty full of himself and I hope that shows in his choice of words.


Story: Lullaby feels bored on the planet where he was left and jumps from a guy's bed into the next to have somewhere to sleep during the nights. Then one day a lunatic suddenly runs in to the bar where Lullaby sits and listens to rumors and shouts out coordinates to a treasure. The bar is quickly emptied with all the pirates and Lullaby is left alone with three other people, whom he allies himself with to go on a treasure hunt. But nothing goes like he expects...


This is a direct continuation from the previous chapter "The Origin of A Lullaby", but it is okay to continue from here too. The previous chapter is about his childhood and how he became the person he is.

Picture by me.

So my eighteenth birthday went by on the planet where I had been brought to by a heretic after my little fire show on a war world. A few days after my birthday I found myself sleeping soundly in a comfortable bed. The mornings were always nice at the mansion where I had found shelter on the planet filled with heretics. It wasn’t exactly like I had a home of my own on that planet. I was rather jumping from one guy’s bed into the next and slept over at many places. When I had been taken there by the leader from the war where I had turned against my own he had hooked me up with a guy who showed me around, but then I was left on my own. I didn’t have money and I didn’t want to sell my weapons, so I ended up seducing men to have somewhere to sleep and hoped that they would treat me for a dinner. It was a shock to go from luxury at the old man’s place to being poor, but that was my reality.

The mansion was my absolute favorite place and I always slept there if I got the chance. The man – who’s name I won’t tell – was a torpedo for hire and he was filthy rich and very handsome. He lived in a luxurious mansion heavily guarded to prevent the thieves and burglars getting in, and he was pretty paranoid at times. But I had gotten myself under his skin and he welcomed me with open arms. Of course he wanted sex, and so I gave him that in exchange for a place to sleep and to get some fine meals in my stomach.

Lullaby Fanfiction 01 - The Origin Of A Lullaby (18+)

So here's the first real instalment in my series about my bad guy Lullaby from the roleplaying game Black Crusade/Warhammer 40k. As I said in an update before I decided to write down all his adventures, and because he's gay and very sexual I thought that maybe they fit here. I have also tried out a new style of writing so you could say this is a experiment.

What do you think happens when an insane person who only knows hate is given a weapon and is taught to kill the ones he hates?

The world is set in the 41st millennium where humans live scattered around the universe in a so called Empire where a special emperor keeps the humanity alive with his own life power. Because The Emperor has grown so weak the human realm has started to fall apart. The humans live a very strict life and has to constantly fight for survival against different types of creatures and demons who lives in the universe, and also many times against them selves. The human world is very corrupted and here and there heretics are born from ordinary people who gets seduced by one of the four dark chaos gods and lives the life of evil and death. The heretics are constantly chased and the more infamous the heretic gets the more the Empire turns their eyes on him/her.

This is the story of my heretic Lullaby who is very self-confident but also very hurt and broken as a human. He's totally insane and knows nothing of what is right and wrong. Even if he's very innocent at heart in a way he's also very dangerous and corrupted, and the more the time went the more infamous he got. In the end the super little gay boy who could charm the pants off of a grown man became so known in universe he became a legend.

Do you dare to get to know him?



Me about Lullaby: He stands for a lot of stuff I won't support. He was created to be as far away from me as a person as possible, and in the beginning I felt pretty angry at him for being so "stupid". But the more I played him the more I began to love him, and now he's my baby and favorite character even if he's a horrible person in so many ways. In the end I also feel a lot in common with him. I guess some parts of him was created from my subconscious and at times I can really relate myself to him. I also love to play the evil guys in games, and I always root for the bad guys in movies and anime so he was really REALLY entertaining to play! But because he was so complex even though he was very simple minded as a character I had a very hard time playing him. My brain was always turned into a goo. LOL! He needs a lot of my brain capacity and an enormous amount of energy to be played. Now he's removed from play though because he became so powerful that the Game Master didn't want to allow him as an active character. Lullaby's more or less an NPC (non playable character) now. I miss  him so much...  (T_T)


Warning!

This story is very dark. I have to warn sensitive people from reading it. His background is very horrible and I myself had a very hard time writing it. It contains a lot of provocative subjects.

Picture of Lullaby as demon god made by me. Before when he was a human he didn't have the tail, horns and purple skin. His helmet wasn't cracked either. Picture took 26 hours to make from scratch.

When I look at people I feel disgusted. They are stupid and predictable, boring and untrustworthy. The world of humans is a dark and gloomy place, and I have been cursed by once being forced to live in that fucked up world as one of these humans. Why do I hate humans? Because the humankind didn’t give a shit about me and gave me nothing but hell.

I still ask – I don’t know who – what I did to deserve the hurt and deceit I got from both my family and the old man. I still ask – I don’t know who – why no one came when I cried for help during all these seventeen years filled with neglect and abuse. You see – I have no one to ask, and I didn’t have anyone to cry for. I have never had a name to call out for when I’m in need and even if I had I was already too broken to call for them. The ones I should have been able to call out and reach for were the ones who were guilty for making my life as it was. Every day as a young boy I asked myself “Is this what my life is for, to waste in a world full of these bad people?”

Six years. That’s all I have lived this far. It was right after my seventeenth birthday that I got free from all the pain. Before that I wasn’t alive. Six years ago I got the courage to grip the handle of freedom. Before that I was a doll filled with chaotic emotions and bending to all the demands of other people. When I got older I wanted to rise up and look my demons in the eyes to tell them to piss off, but no matter how hard I tried they had a grip on me that was tight enough to almost suffocate the life out of me. My little will to stand straight crackled under the heaviness of other people’s greed and desires. I had learned from my childhood that tears and begging didn’t help, so I just did as told. Just cope with the pain. That was my first lesson in life.

Fanfic: Brutal Love (Lullaby) 18+

So here I have another Lullaby-fanfiction. I decided to upload it here because it is kind of BL. It takes place on a huge space ship in the 41st millennium.


Can insane people really fall in love? Maybe they can, but they certainly expresses their feelings in a different way than normal people. The story is about my insane badguy Lullaby (Black Crusade/Warhammer 40k) falling in love and wanting to express to that special person exactly how much he really loves him.

I want to warn sensitive people from reading this. Even though Lullaby mostly seems innocent like an angel he is brutal and shows no mercy to anyone. In this story Lullaby makes himself into a good (bad?) example of how an insane person shows his love.

(I found my inspiration to this story from the music of Marilyn Manson and a quote from someone unknown I found on internet - which I don't remember anymore. LOL!)

Picture by me. It took me 9 hours to complete this. (>_>)

He stood there staring at the man in front of him. He was so beautiful, so attractive and handsome. Lullaby felt his heart flutter like it had never done before. A heat flushed through his body, but it wasn’t the typical heat he normally felt when he was attracted to someone. It was a heat that made him blush and his mind went haywire with pleasant feelings. He felt shy. That really surprised him and he didn’t understand really what was going on. He wanted the man, but not just sexually.

I’m never shy. Why now?, he thought and felt a pleasant shiver run down his spine as the man threw a glance at him. I want him.

Fanfiction: There Is Another Lullaby

Sorry, this time it's not a "real" fanfiction. This is actually a fanfiction from Warhammer 40k's tabletop game Black Crusade where I have a character named Lullaby. My Lullaby is a really bad guy and completely insane. He's cute but he's the sluttiest little gay brat in the whole universe who loves torture and sex. But his past is very, very dark: He had gotten so much insanity already as a young teenager that he lost his mind and became evil. He has gone through abuse of every kind you can ever imagine all the way up to his 17th birthday when he turned his back to human kind and told it to fuck off.

Because his past is so dark I wanted to try and make an alternative dimension where he actually has a happy past, and that inspired me to make two short fanfictions with this alternative version of him.

This first one was completed today and is about how this alternative Lullaby is being tainted by Chaos. A mysterious man storms into his room one night and seduces Lullaby. But the man won't tell who he is, but he sure knows about Lullaby and starts to blackmail him with sensitive information. Lullaby - who is a spoiled little rich kid born into a noble family of navigators - fights back, but his body is too hungry for another man that he finally gives in. But what he doesn't know is that as he gives himself to the man he is tainted with Chaos, and one of the chaos gods - Prince of Pleasure Slaanesh - decides to make a little visit in Lullaby's dreams.

It's a story about the beginning of an alternative Lullaby becoming a bad guy. Who doesn't like to watch a nobleman's kid fall to the "dark side"? Almost like Star Wars. LOL!

(There is two things these two Lullaby's has in common: Their personality and Slaanesh.)

• And here is a fanfiction about how he acts as a bad guy:
  Let Me Sing You a Lullaby
  
  I posted this on my other blog because it really doesn't have any sex in it and doesn't suit here. The story is about how he kills the govenor's son on a pleasure world that he wants to claim as his own.

 (Picture of Lullaby hand-drawn by me.)

The night was hot and the 17 year old Haddon Amabell was tossing and turning in his king-sized bed in his room. His body was sticky with sweat and he sighed heavily and sat up in bed. His golden blond hair was disheveled because of the tossing and turning and stood out in every way possible. He yawned irritated and rubbed his closed eyes for a few seconds before he stood up from the bed and staggered tired to the balcony door and opened it to walk outside to look at the busy city not too far from the mansion where he lived. The cool night wind caressed his naked body and calmed his hot skin – which was the typical tone of a noble; pearl white. He stood there for a while to enjoy the cool air before going to bed again. The summer season was at its peak and the hot weather had been exhausting for everybody. It was hotter than usual on the planet and rumors about the planet dying became more spread and talked about. But Haddon didn’t care. When he was finished with school and turned 18 he would disappear from that backwater world and never look back.

Haddon was born into a proud noble family of navigators, but he himself wasn’t born with the gene that would make him into a navigator and pride for his family house. He was the only one in his whole family born without the special gene passed down from generation to generation in the family house of Amabells. Instead he had gotten an unusual human mutation: Heterochromia with his right eye blue and left eye green. He was also of a very small build and he was often mistaken for being much younger than he actually was.

His parents didn’t care about him lacking that special gene though. Haddon had a five years older sister named Lucretia who was a full-fledged navigator and working to maintain the family status. She was a hard worker and Haddon hadn’t seen her for almost a year now. He often thought about her and wished he would be a navigator too to work in the same galaxy sector as her, but instead he was educated into a void-master.  He hoped to one day be the void-master of the ship where his sister was a navigator, but they were so many years apart that he knew it was almost impossible. She would retire and start a family before Haddon got as far as being a void-master. The time to get to the rank of a void-master took years.

Haddon was the family’s black sheep and was a very mischievous young man. His personality shifted like night and day without his family knowing it. During the day he pretended to be a well-brought-up child of the noble household of Amabells who was on top of his class, did as he was told and respected his parents. But during the night his real personality came forth: He loved to party and jump from the one man’s bed into the next. He loved attention and did everything to get it, and he didn’t hesitate to get what he wanted. But he was very cautious to never reveal his true identity as an Amabell. The reputation of his household was still a concern for him, so he went by the nickname Lullaby at the masquerade parties he and his family was invited to – and Lullaby was much known in the shadowy parts of these parties. If it was a normal party he just had to keep his legs shut and endure it.